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Posted in Autism, Christianity, Discernment, Eternity, Gods Word, Jesus Christ, religion, Spiritual warfare, Tribulation Saints on February 5, 2012 by timbob

I Corinthians 7:29-31 “But this I say, brethren, the time is short: it remaineth, that both they that have wives be as though they had none;
and they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that buy, as though they possessed not;
And they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passeth away.”

Perhaps that seems a strange passage to begin this post with; especially since it is primarily an update as to what has been transpiring in my proverbial “neck of the woods.” And yet, when sitting down to tell of the goings on here, this passage instantly came to mind. Anytime I’m faced with uncertainty or in need of direction, a passage of scripture is always brought to remembrance. For me, this has always been a prioritizing scripture. A placing of urgency on things eternal and setting temporal things in their proper perspective. Many seem to have this in reverse. Many seem to place more emphasis on careers, family, trappings, and even sports than the deep things of God. While they adamently profess to love Jesus, their conversation consistantly seems to gravitate toward temporal matters. The bulk of a persons dialogue will reveal what they spend the lions share of their time meditating on.

Lately, I’ve not not been spending much time in any of the social networking venues. It was not a planned thing; at least not on my part. January of 2012 arrived and suddenly we had a myriad of complexities to contend with. Vehicle complications, financial issues, Matthew (our autistic son) needing an ever-increasing amount of attention while the costs of taking care of him continue to rise, a looming foreclosure which, from the natural perspective seems unavoidable, and other issues which  are far too complicated to convey here. The limited time that I once had to check out links, read through threads of dialogue, even a few seconds to wish a “happy birthday” to a friend whenever facebook alerted me to the event, seemed to vanish into a sea of neverending obligation and manuverings. And yet, these dark clouds of complexity have had a silver lining, and it is that silver lining which is in need of focusing. 

As I write this, I honestly do not know where we will be living six months from now. I know that the Lord could supernaturally provide resolution to this situation. Yet I’m not compelled to ask this in prayer. I have done so a few times, but it seems like an empty request; as though my heart is simply not in it. Instead, the fervent prayer request has been “Lord Jesus, my affections are with you; and not on a physical location. I want to be in your perfect will and if you are moving us elsewhere, I’ll be content.” The possibility of physical loss and uncertainty in the days ahead has not been bothering me. Oh I think on it sometimes, but I prefer to meditate on eternal issues with everlasting ramifications. The peace is beyond description and it’s almost like an adventure; not knowing what will transpire, but knowing that God has already made provision. There is, however, one remaining concern. Is this profession of faith a legitimate reflexion of my heart, or just an idealistic euphoria that will vaporate in the event of a worst-case senario?

Jeremiah 17:9-10 “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?
I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.”

The recent event-induced internet drought has been quite an unexpected blessing. I seriously doubt  (though I could be wrong) that I’ll ever again be as heavily engaged as I once was. It was getting to the point that I was reading so much input from so many sources that It was becomming a massive chorus of noise. I needed to step back and allow the Lord to put things back into perspective. In Ecclesiastes 12:9, we read how the preacher (Solomon) sought out and set in order many proverbs. In a way, I needed to have some things put back in order. There are wars, rumors, and multiple reportings on both; each report being slanted toward a particular world view. If we spend our time reading these reports and not enough time seeking the Lord, we can drive ourselves nutty. It’s very important to stay informed of events. It’s important and spiritually needful to be in fellowship with like-minded saints as much as possible. But it’s imperative to maintain and continuously build up our most holy faith. For me, the past few weeks have seen a level of sweetness in the presence of the Lord that had been lacking.

February 4, of 2012 was in interesting milestone. First of all, it was Matthews 17th birthday. Despite all of the complexities that he presents, he really is a fascinating guy. En eternal soul, created in the image of God. Last year, I began taking him into the streets while sharing the gospel. He now loves to go into the city, and walk around, which frees me up to tend to eternal issues. Matthews love for getting out in this manner has resulted in many souls being presented with the gospel. Also on Feb 4, Matthew and I embarked on the 17th such outing for the year of 2012. Many of these outings would not have transpired if Matthew was not autistic because these blocks of time would have been consumed by seemingly important obligations. In years past, every trip into the streets had been a real battle just to get away from the daily grind. Now Matthew “needs” to get out in this fashion, otherwise he becomes uncontrollable in the evening. (autistic people have a need for “routine” and, once something becomes a part of their routine, it has to be reckoned with.) He goes anywhere; from well-maintained parks, to busy downtown areas, to dangerous neighborhoods.

If I have peace about an area I go; if I don’t have peace, I don’t go. I also monitor Matthews behavior (which is always very easy-going in the streets) and can usually operate within his perimeters. And yet, even though I know how Matthew will respond to most situations, he does have the ability to occasionally do the unexpected. Last fall, we were in an alley approaching a group of people who were hanging out. They were not at all interested in hearing about Jesus and one of the guys informed me to “just keep walking.” I prepared to continue up the alley and motioned for Matthew to come. As I turned, I saw that he, with all of his happy-like mannerism, had quickly waded deep into the crowd and was about to have a seat. I casually went in to get his attention and we then proceeded on our way. This could have created an ugly confrontation, but ended without incident. The peace of God was present the entire time.

Well I need to be going for now. There is a lot of uncertainty in our lives at the moment, but this uncertainty is restricted to the theater of atoms. I know of a pastor who used to tell about the “hundred year test” which goes like this. Whenever we find ourselves getting apprehensive or agitated about a thing, step back and ask “will this be important a hundred years from now?” If the answer is “no; it will not be important a hundred years from now,” than it’s not really that important now. It seems simple, and yet I have often employed this when things were getting to me. It’s easy to become overcharged by issues that have no bearing on eternity and subsequently, remove ourselves from the battle. The temporal seems so real, and yet we know that heaven and earth shall pass away. Well; it’s after 3:00 am. Blessings always in Jesus name.

Colossians 3:1-4 “If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.
Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.
For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.
When Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory.”



Posted in Autism, Christianity, Discernment, End Times, Eternity, Gods Word, Jesus Christ, religion, Salvation, Spiritual warfare on July 11, 2011 by timbob

I Peter 5:8-9 “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he might devour:
Whom resist steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.”

I Peter 5:10 “But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen you.”

We have a absolutely relentless foe. We rightfully identify this enemy as “that old serpent, which is the devil, and Satan” along with the entire cast of fallen entities. We have no idea as to how many there are, but we do know that they have a common mission; that is to operate contrary to the perfect ways of their own infinate Creator.  To substitute truth with a lie, to present a countless array of paths which seem right to those who lack understanding, but only lead away from Jesus, and to promote destruction with every aspect of their being.  They long ago forsook the privilage of being in fellowship with God, “with whom is no variance, neither shadow of turning.” Now they are completely given over to hatred and chaos. They are incapable of love or compassion, they are unrepentant in having departed their first estate, and their mouths are filled with blasphemies against God. Their mission is to lure as many as they can into an eternity apart from Jesus.

This is what we face every moment of every day. They do not take vacations. they don’t relax while we are parked in front of a television and they don’t go on holiday while we are slumbering. As if this isn’t daunting enough, we can be assured that, the more of a threat we become, the more intense the attacks against us will be. this is not something to be feared as we are more than conquerors through Christ Jesus. It is, however, something that we must identify and be ready to respond to. For me, a ramping up of the enemy seemed to coincide with a may 5, 2011 broadcast featuring Russ Dizdar and Omegaman. The discussion was spiritual warfare and it left me determined to begin engaging the enemy in aspects which, prior to the may 5 broadcast, had been greatly misunderstood. I began listening to the messages on Russ’ site and employing them.

Very few seem willing to engage at this level, and I’m beginning to understand why. It’s not a pretty place. Spiritual warfare is dirty business. It’s exhausting, it’s widely misunderstood, it’s rarely appreciated, and it doesn’t allow one to go on holiday. After listening to Russ on May 5, I was all fired up. A romantic-esque image of casting out devils and pulling down strongholds dominated my thoughts. This quickly dissipated as the chaos in my life seemed to take on a life of its own. Everything was going wrong, from financial problems to increased complications with our son Matthew (he has autism and is becoming increasingly difficult to work with) Increasingly, my days were becoming consumed by one overwhelming distraction after another. (A look at this blog will reveal a noticable lack of activity in previous weeks. This is why) Even though I knew what was happening, the intensity of the assault was such that I felt powerless to continue; even to the point of wanting to depart the land of the living. Even though I continuously reminded myself that “this is very temporal” (which it is) despair seemed to be winning the battle in short order.

Actually, assaults from the devil are a good sign. He will put the greatest amount of effort into thwarting what he considers to be the greatest threat to his kingdom. This came to light quite a while back while in the streets. I wondered why those who carry the truth have so much trouble getting out. The Jehovahs Witnesses are out every day, like a well oiled machine, telling everyone about another Jesus. (Galatians 1:6-9) That’s because they don’t have fallen entities attempting to thwart them at every turn. The devil would love for everyone in Elkhart to believe in a Jesus who is “not” God manifest in the flesh, and start trying to “work” their way into a desirable eternal situation. But if one, born of the Spirit, is presenting the true Jesus, who paid for our sins with his own blood and rose from the dead; a gospel which is not in word only, but power, that is a real threat to the kingdom of darkness. The devil will employ everything at his disposal in an attempt to prevent it from going forth. In my case, getting into the streets has come to a near halt due to a myriad of circumstances, the greatest of which is the increasing complications associated with Matthew. Every day; oftentimes every hour, I have to step back and ask the Lord for clarity as to what’s really playing out.

Discouragement can cloud ones discernment almost as effectively as arrogance. 

Praise God for the increase in  both understanding and resolution. I’m more determined than ever to not go backwards. I’m striving to assault the kingdom of darkness whenever and wherever I’m at. If I cannot get into the streets, I can take matthew with me to Purgatory and “thunder down prayers” over the strongholds of darkness. Either way the devil loses. “Purgartory” is the unofficial name of the “Three Rivers State Game Area.” It’s a large wooded area that begins about a mile north of our house and occupies several square miles. Matthew loves to go into the woods and it’s become a place to focus on intercessory prayer. There are a lot of urban-legend-type stories associated with this woods. Most are just stories; the type that any seemingly out of the way location may foster. Yet there are documented “anomalies” and yesterday morning, something came up. While praying about normal issues, I found myself breaking any ancient curses or hexes associated with this land. It was not a planned thing; it was just dropped in my spirit to do so. We have no idea of what may have taken place there five hunderd years ago, or what is taking place now. As Russ has pointed out, we only hear of about ten percent of the goings on in the dark realm. Here’s a web site with information on Purgatory.


The picture that one sees when going to this site is a building where satanic ritual activity was reported to be going on. The building was brought down about three years ago, but the area is still unnerving.

Well I need to be going shortly. Overnight blogging may be an effective way to stay current here, but it can be exhausting. Another thing that has been placed on my heart concerns Matthew. I’m fervently praying for his deliverance. In acts 10:38, Peter tells how Jesus went about “healing all that were oppressed of the devil.” The worlds prognosis is “continual medication adjustments and eventual placement in a group home. I can no longer subscribe to this, and I was wrong for doing so in the first place. Matthews deliverance will be beyond  astonishing, and all who are familiar with the situation will “know” that there is power in the blood of Jesus. The devil wants to keep Matthew bound in a maze of confusion. Jesus can make him completely free. This I’m determined to see through; regardless of those who would believe it to be impossible. This will deprive the enemy of a platform from which he has been able to orchestrate a lot of chaos.”THEN MATTHEW AND I CAN BOTH HIT THE STREETS! (without my having to explain Matthews situation to the sincerely curious) Here’s a link that contains a very encouraging autism recovery testimony.


The questions linger. Do we truly understand deliverance? Do we truly understand the enemy that we are warring against? When we see brethren express more interest in sports or career building than the pulling down of strongholds, how can we proclaim to have understanding of these issues? Each of us who are striving to understand, will have to be the spark in our respective venues. I currently can’t imagine gathering up a group of saints to go up to Purgatory at night and pray against strongholds. Many of the brethren; their eyes glaze over when one mentions “the end times.” How  can such possibly be prepared to engage the enemy; both now, and in the days ahead? How can they possibly confront a supernatural demonic swarm; all of whom know that their time is short and that they are soon to be cast into their eternal situation? It’s become a continually inquiry for me; “Lord Jesus, do I even have a clue as to the full scope of this?” We need more than a clue and must abide close to the Lord at all times.

Well I have to go. Blessings always in Jesus name.

James 4:7-10 “Submit yourselves therefore to God. resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.
Be afflicted and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness
Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.”

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